Perfectly Permanent Birthday

IMG_5477Another year has come and gone, and I am once again incredibly blessed in all aspects of my life.

For my 26th birthday today, I booked the day off, and spent it EXACTLY how I wanted.

I slept in until about 8:30 when the sun was just starting to rise and my Dad called. [He is always the first person to tell me happy birthday-he always beats G because he calls first thing in the morning, I love it.] I had a nice hot shower while I listening to my new Adele CD (a birthday gift from G along with a beautiful rose gold band and my favourite perfume), and put on some simple but pretty makeup and blow-dried and straightened my hair. I got into my favourite cute-comfy clothes.

 

G and I hoped over to the mall where I had a nail appointment for a pedicure. I was pampered and Graeme had his own hair cut and then got us both a starbucks.[BTW. It ALWAYS snows on my birthday..and of course in december-fashion it was snowing a bit when I came out with my sandals on :)]

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Next we went and purchased a variety of gluten free cupcakes from my favourite Cupcake Conspiracy downtown before returning home.

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We had about an hour before our next event which was perfect time for G to shower/shave [clean face just for me!] + put on some cologne [also a big deal, he hates cologne and I love it]. While home I got my Indigo delivery from black friday! Whoooo! Total surprise to receive a package on the weekend (Im assuming long hours for christmas)- but it contained some stocking things for G…as well as 3 candles I got for amazing deals. They all smell amazing! Happy Birthday to me! I also got to chat with my mom on the phone for a bit.(Mom + Dad contributed to our refugee sponsorship for my birthday which I appreciate wayyyyy more than a gift!:))

After we were done at home, we headed over to pick up my brother and then went to Famoso-my favourite pizza place for a casual lunch with a bunch of my friends! [some had to work and what not][the BEST gluten free pizza…and  I have NEVER been contaminated accidentally which is a huge feat at such a restaurant!]

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We had about another hour and a half before we had to head to a very special appointment so we came home. I had a cupcake and tea while cuddling with G watching my favourite show of the week: Last Man Standing on netflix. I was also able to finish up my goal list for the year! Fun things coming up!

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Finally, we went for the most anticipated part of the day. MY TATTOO!!!! Shannon at Alchemy Tattoo was AMAZING,  warm, kind…and didn’t seemed bothered at all by my type-A nature. She stencilled out my design twice, the first one was a bit small, the second perfect, and then she put the stencil on my arm around FIVE times while I hummed and hawed about exactly where I wanted it (I wanted it to be relatively straight even when moving…which is tough on the area I chose). Finally once I had decided, she reassured my fears of the pain, and started. Within 5 minutes, and essentially no pain [I have had paper cuts and running chafe that hurt more], it was done!!:) I absolutely adore it! My only regret is not going sooner. (Keep in mind the photo is five seconds after it was done, so all the blue is just from the stencils, all that will remain in a couple days is the black ENOUGH..and hopefully a  lot less redness. I’ll post a good pic when it is healed up.)

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After the tattoo we came home to do exactly what I wanted- to hang out at home! We are now relaxing on the couch, watching youtube videos, reading, sipping tea.

The only plans left are to watch my favourite movie, Marley & Me, maybe wrapping my final stocking gifts for G for xmas, and bed early for work tomorrow! [I planned a lunch out for this purpose…I’m a morning person!]

I am so incredibly thankful for this beautiful life I have, with so many wonderful people. Thanks for coming along for the ride. 🙂 Here’s to 26!

 

 

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STOP IT!

I need to address something here that is very VERY very important.

If I hear one more person tell me the secret reason they have never run is because they are too self conscious…..
I have heard this sad fact from at least 5 people this month. Tiny people, less tiny people, large people. Young people, old people.

PEOPLE! You are beautiful. If you are walking, shuffling, running, darting, ANYTHING, you are doing better than the majority of north americans sitting at home on their couch.

Screw them. Screw the kids who teased you as a kid. Screw the “elites” who make you feel slow. Screw bad body image.

We are all beautiful, and doing the best you can, and running is such a joy and gift because of just that-it teaches you to love yourself, and that you are capable of so much more than you think.

So whether you are 600 LBS, or 90lbs. 10 years old, or 80 years old… Lets get moving. No one else’s opinion should ever determine our health.

(PS. Me and all my ‘running friends’ are commending you…It takes incredible strength to get out there. Starting is hard, we were all there once.)

The End.

Love, Me.

A Mish Mosh of Thoughts.

Life lately has been odd.

Im not not happy, Im not sad, Im not anxious, Im not mad. I am just an odd ball of bits of everything. I had one REALLY hard week that I made myself a shut-in because I had such a terrible time coping-it hit me like a bag of bricks…and I didn’t know how to climb out. I spent a lot of time crying, and cancelled every single social thing scheduled to sit home alone in my sweat pants. Thankfully working distracted me, and I was able to pull out…. now I am just in this limbo of contentment, with occasional sad moments, but most often happy and good moments. Turns out you can’t just turn off grief or sadness because “You are ready to move on”. 😉 Should have seen that one coming.

I am trying to focus on all the great things in my life, but the more I try to take my mind off of having children, the more I am brought back to this gut wrenching feeling that I NEED to adopt. The only way I can explain it is that in my soul, I know, my child is out there, waiting for me to bring them home.[I am aware of how incredibly INSANE this sounds] My head tells me; try IVF your chances are good…but my heart tells me; get going with adoption. THERE IS WHERE YOU FIND YOUR FAMILY. I am SO drawn to India; specifically children involved in human-trafficking there. Every day I spend away from the fertility clinic is another day my heart yearns for adoption more and more. The longer I am away, the more I dread going back. I literally CAN NOT WAIT to finally begin the process and make more solid plans next year.

These soul-searching feelings and thoughts are exciting, and scary…but mostly exciting.

In other news, our refugee fund is going well. A bunch of us were able to meet a family member of the family we are trying to sponsor which was incredibly rewarding. We were able to see pictures/names/ages of the whole family. It was so wonderful, but also sobering to hear about their journey to safety and freedom so far.

I am so inspired and amazed by what these people go through in their lives, and still come out so resiliently. The human spirit is such an incredible thing. I can’t wait to finally meet them in the near future. Fundraising is going well so far and I am so thankful for everyone who has contributed.

I have some-what gone off the rails in the last month-not running much, eating dairy whenever I want (and feeling relatively terrible with frequent allergic reactions). I am hoping to get back on track with this this week. Something about freakin’ cheese! So addictive. [and painful] There is some crazy little voice inside of me telling me to train for another full marathon this year….then I remember the pain of training: 32km runs in the WINTER. UGH. Who knows. I need a goal though. Oh…and the fact that I haven’t run more than 12km at a time since the summer. EK.

I have some pretty wonderful colleagues. I have been off of working nights for two whole months- and I have another two whole months of nights traded away which is quite incredible. I am SO thankful. Its very evident my body is happier this way. My hormonal temperatures have been 100% normal and predictable for the first time in the entire 3+ years we have been trying to have a baby. My skin is also clearing up, and my “menstrual issues” have been a lot better also. Its incredible how much stress and sleep have to do with your hormones!

I booked an appointment to get my first tattoo after a few years of humming and hawing. I am going on my 26th birthday to have the word ENOUGH tattooed, forever, on me.[lets not even discuss the panic I am feeling at the thought of commitment!] I finally had some clarity of what I needed to carry with me.

I AM MORE THAN ENOUGH; with or without a baby.
I AM MORE THAN ENOUGH; no matter what size I am.
I AM MORE THAN ENOUGH; to accomplish anything.
MY GOD IS MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME.

Finally….
I have the best support system in the world.
My family, my friends, my coworkers, random strangers reading… Seriously. How did I get so lucky? People are going through real, HARD things…and yet they still have time to support me through this whirlwind of a year. What the heck! My birthday is coming up…. which means a whole new year of fun, exciting, scary goals- keep your eyes out! I hope I can give back in some awesome ways this year.

Thanks for sticking with me through my ramblings and this crazy journey I call my life!;)